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Who’s leading your life

Not leading your own life will give any and everybody the opportunity to tell you who you are and what you can and can’t do. Trusting yourself and becoming self-aware is going to be one of the keys to getting you through this life. Realizing who is here to truly hold space for your growth and who’s here to only see you through so much(and see you as so much, don’t let that go over your head). Listen to yourself! Always tell yourself the truth. No matter how “ashamed”you are of it, or if you don’t want to face the “mistakes” you have made, ALWAYS tell yourself the truth. The hardest person you will ever have to face in this life is you and once you have mastered that honesty and trust within yourself, you can face that with anyone or anything that comes your way. No one should be able to tell you about you and it be a shocker to you. I don’t care what it is “good” or “bad” “ugly” or “beautiful” you always stay 10 steps ahead of the game when you become more self aware of yourself. I struggled at leading my own life because I didn’t trust myself nor was I honest with myself. I would lie to myself and try to justify things rather if I was just trying to be right or if I didn’t want to face and let go of a habit, thought or belief that was no longer serving me. This past year I was given multiple experiences and every single experience I listened to everything outside of me, while the whole time my inner self was telling me what was going on, I chose to ignore it and each situation almost ended the same way, with me being hurt, disappointed and angry. I knew I wanted more out of people and other things but there was a small part of me that didn’t think I was deserving of those things. So I refused to listen to my inner self because I didn’t think she was capable of making the right decisions which led me to listen to everything outside of me. In all honesty, had I really listened to my inner self I could’ve avoided the hurtful outcome of a lot of my experiences. The truth is that you’re going to have these experiences but don’t take them for granted or punish yourself because they are here to just point out the parts of you that you have ignored for so long. In this case for me, it showed me the lack of trust in myself and how I was truly not leading my own life. However since really having, let’s just call it an epiphany, I can honestly say a lot has changed. Becoming self aware has really taught me how to accept things as they are, I have way more grace for myself and believe me having grace for self is a lot in its self! No one has the room to come in and tell me about me, I no longer hold space for that type of energy. So I say all this just to say, learn yourself, accept yourself and lead yourself but do not and I mean DO NOT ever try to change yourself! You are a beautiful soul. Be blessed,

Deshayla

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